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Exploring my self and the world through art.


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List #3: Ideal Day and Jenniebellie’s new Journal Workshops

Yes, I’m late on this one.  Shit happened.  I mean, my whole being is being transformed, and from one day or even one moment to the next, I’m letting go of old things I used to love and inviting in new things I haven’t loved in this lifetime, so this prompt, the ingredients of my ideal day, seemed like poor timing.  Until I remembered my Desire Map.  Then I started listing the feelings I wanted to experience on my ideal day, and the page came together easily.  I was feeling a lot of resistance to doing art again (sigh) but then I turned the page after List #2 and I’d scraped red paint on the spread while doing some Fearless Painting (images coming soon) and it seemed all ready for me.  So I thought, “Well, I can just write a list on this.  In sky blue poster paint.”  And it went from there, adding embellishments, outlining every little thing, adding my three top symbols of star, heart, and spiral, and ending with this:

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One thing this taught me is that pre-prepped pages, even just a little prepping, can make a big difference between doing art and just not feeling like making that first mark.

I also spent the whole day yesterday exploring Jennibellie’s wonderful new FREE art journal community, Journal Workshops!  I watched every video in her free class, Inspiration Station, and it really gave me a lot of insight and ideas and yes, inspiration, for how to move my practice forward.  Thank you Jenniebellie, I honestly believe you are THE most inspirational art journaling teacher out there.


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List #2 Art Journal Spread

List #2 is How would I describe myself to a penpal?  A very cool prompt, especially since I have a great new penpal I’m just getting to know, and I would like to discover more along the way, and because I’m working on being more authentic in sharing my whole WEIRD and WONDERFUL self.  This drawing was done in Pentel Energel, then painted with watercolors, then embellished with brush pen, stick on jewels, glitter glue (in her pupils…so dreamy), poster paint pen, Pitt Artist pen, stickers (from my penpal!) and metallic gelly roll pens.

I’m comin’ out!

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Why I Was MIA, and 30 Days of Lists, List #1

So yeah, about that whole 29 Faces thing.  I didn’t finish it.  Why?  Well, I got pulled completely offline in every way by Spirit from Feb. 21  – Feb 28, and that included my Internet for a few days.  This was big.  And now that I’ve been put back online, I’m a different person.  That’s the gist of it.

And I’m starting a new daily challenge for this month, as I mentioned before.  I’m doing the 30 Days of Lists, and List 1 came out yesterday.  I have never done this before, and my plan was to do an art journal page each day using the list.  But when the day came, I had SO much resistance to doing an art journal page.  And I realized, I was setting myself to overcome two different obstacles in this challenge, rather than one.  The first challenge, the list, is enough.  I don’t need the second challenge of doing daily art on top of that.

So then I couldn’t decide how to list, and I struggled for a couple of hours, changing my mind over and over and even having a slight panic attack.  It was ridiculous, or it seemed so, but I knew something BIG was trying to come through for me.  And it was Shan, my partner, who suggested I do my list different each day, and just follow my whims, letting my brain churn up idea after idea without it being because the first one wasn’t good enough.

This was huge for me.

I realized I would NEVER have allowed myself to do that without outside validation.  That I had a HARSH, even rather insane critic inside that wants things done A CERTAIN WAY, and that nothing I ever do is good enough for him.  Yes, it’s a he.  And my brain is extremely prolific when it comes to ideas.  And the way my critic uses that is to give them to me just when I’ve started something, because no, this idea would be even better…but then wait, if you did this too…oh and you should have done that instead because it would be so cool…oh wow what if we did that, too and this instead and…

And I become paralyzed, unable to just move forward with one idea, and it pisses me off and makes me dread doing creative work.  It’s creative death.

Yes, that is my crazy.  And it’s not just in art, but the way it shows up is mirrored exactly, and I KNOW that this work I’m doing with art is HUGE work that is healing this very detrimental issue so that maybe I can finally be happy.

With that in mind, I decided to use the original list I scribbled into a notebook, taking as much pressure off this issue as humanly possible.  So here it is, with the final item added before posting, thanks to Shan.

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The little arrow is thanks to her, too, another sticker from another package of poop bags.  She brought it to me before she took Bruce for his morning walk.  🙂


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29 Faces: Feb 19 Art Journal Page

She started with a simple pencil drawing, then I added watercolor pencil, then pen, stamping, and poster paint marker.  The strip of colors on the side is from junk mail, and the moth is from a magazine.  The message is what Spirit is talking to me about right now.

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She seems unfinished but finished, somehow.  She is what she is.

29 Faces is over at the end of February, and I’ve just registered for the 30 Days of Lists challenge which starts March 1st.  I plan to do those in my art journal as well.  I’d love to do some kind of daily creative practice challenge each month to keep me doing things and sharing them, so I’m always on the lookout for the next one.  These practices are showing me that there is more inside me than I think, even when I feel like I’m in a creative ebb, and because it’s journaling, it gives me an opportunity to connect with my intuition on a daily basis, whether it’s easy or not, if only for ten or fifteen minutes of slapping together a page.  I’m learning that it all contributes toward my learning, development, and self-awareness.